company

Again I am alone in my house.  First there were sisters, then roommates in college, sisters again, a husband, then there was one sister, then there was the other sister, and now there are none…

Behold, I am doing a new thing;  now it springs forth, do you not perceive it?
I will make a way in the wilderness  and rivers in the desert. Isaiah 49:19

Overwhelmed at the thought of getting a new roommate.  Hating living by myself.  Not loving the option of selling my house in the economy (since we bought it about 6 months before the bottom dropped out of the economy.  Like, literally.) But there aren’t that many TRULY GOOD memories in that house.  Packing sounds so TERRIBLE to me, and I would end up throwing almost everything AWAY.

Now, dear friends, I have been praying for guidance on this house for about 14 months.  What is strange is that I keep WAVERING on what to do, and waiting on a clear sign.  But maybe its NOT a clear sign.

Maybe its a just a jump that getting out of a house that you used to be married, and then you weren’t –

the house that has half-done projects because someone started them, and then moved away –

the house that held tears and a failed marriage –

MAYBE its a jump because I am supposed to just TRUST.

Revelations 21:4  “He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”

So MAYBE I start packing up little by little, and not just NOT. Maybe I just lose the ties that hold me to Birmingham – the ties that haunt of dead dogs and deader life.  Maybe somethings are just MEANT to be left behind.

Deut 28:1-6 “And if you faithfully obey the voice of the Lord your God, being careful to do all his commandments that I command you today, the Lord your God will set you high above all the nations of the earth. ² And all these blessings shall come upon you and overtake you, if you obey the voice of the Lord your God. ³ Blessed shall you be in the city, and blessed shall you be in the field. ⁴ Blessed shall be the fruit of your womb and the fruit of your ground and the fruit of your cattle, the increase of your herds and the young of your flock. ⁵ Blessed shall be your basket and your kneading bowl. ⁶ Blessed shall you be when you come in, and blessed shall you be when you go out.”

Timeless

I love this woman.  She just WORKS!  Cheek bones, nails, not to mention I am kind of obsessed with these creepy GIFs!  I also think there is a woman who has no problems, doesn’t have to keep her house clean, or contemplate selling her car so she afford not to have a roommate.  Here is a woman who just looks “perfect” and people bring her Perrier with fresh lemon slices and she shows up in the kitchen and her caught-that-morning tuna is resting on a perfect bed of lettuce that her personal chef has given her.  That someone picks out her outfit and asks here what she WANTS to do that day instead of what she has to do.

But.

Then.

I think she couldn’t POSSIBLY laugh as much as I do.

Or smile.

Or learn about how to live without EVERYTHING that I want.

Or how cleaning my house makes me appreciate every corner that I earn myself to stay here.

And that there is a “perfect” plan for me – But God’s writing it, and it does not have me sitting around being waited on.  But it does have me getting dirty, and working hard, and standing up for something that I believe in.  And that my friends seems better than being a model in a creepy GIF.

Romans 8:28   And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.